This week so far i have...

-gone to good will and bought pants TWO SIZES SMALLER than previously owned clothing.
-walked everyday but one.
-was a part of a winning trivia team.
-had some sweet hang outs with a new friend.
-got a package from my parents filled with "i love new hampshire" treasures.
-worked quite a bit.
-got made fun of for wearing a headband everyday that i worked.
-got a game pre-order.
-went to this magical place entitled the "waffle window".
-talked to numerous friends for long periods of time on the phone.
-upgraded my phone so that i now have voicemail like a big girl.
-did i mention i'm down two sizes?

it's been a good week. now i need to practice patience, honesty, and courage. three things that i'm terrified of. oh liiiiife.

Gee I'm Glad It's Raining

Today I went for a walk outside and got caught in the rain.
It was wonderful.
Then I took a hot shower as soon as I got home.
It was magical.
Then I went to work.
It was mediocre.
Now I'm getting ready for bed.
Sleep will be delightful.

Good Day, Sunshine!

Today was a wonderful day filled with sunshine, good food, good conversation, grocery shopping, and more sunshine.

Portland is a wonderful place.

I've been having all these dreams that involve some fantastic hug along the lines of this:



Stephen Kirsch, my infamous Facebook fiance is probably in the top 5 huggers of my whole entire life. I don't get super awesome sweet hugs anymore. Every once in a while I'll get a pretty fantastic Car hug, but really, I've been missing that part of my life where I didn't go more than, say, 10 hours without some sort of human contact involving a hug or holding hands or what have you. I really miss it. And I would really like it if all of these people would come out to Portland and hug me:

Trevor Diaz
Stephen Kirsch
Abbie Getty
Sarah Burgess
DREW LANE
Bryant Vance
Richard Chagnon
Landree Fleming
Amanda Holston
Melissa Paolangoli
Stephanie Leh
Tracy Brigham
Josh Button
Jordan Swisher

Thank you all for respecting my wishes and coming to HUG ME.

I miss everyone.

Mad Chemistry

So today felt like i was back in college again.
You know, back in the day when I had 3 jobs, full course load, and various productions to work on.
Back in the day when homework was something I did at 3 in the morning.
Back in the day where most of my time was spent in the theatre or in Burgess' room or in the union.
Back in the day when I was so busy that taking a 10 minute nap felt like Jesus had come back to sing me to sleep.
Back in the day when my biggest concern was how I was going to finish my Bible project and my Theatre History project on time.

I think I have learned to do better at no doing much. I don't feel like I've wasted a day if I go on a walk or clean my room or just do something productive. I don't have to accomplish a million things a day and squeeze in a diner run in order to feel like life is slipping away.

I think it's a combination of west coast living and elizabeth powers that has helped teach me that not everyday has to be full of activity. Sometimes it's much more wondrous to slow down a little and take time for myself.

Class was awesome tonight. I felt like I really put myself out there and I took some risks and I had so much FUN. No panic attacks, no getting lost on the way to the theatre, no crying, just FUN. which is what I needed.

I'm really looking forward to the next couple days.

I Never Thought I'd Be on a Boat.

My favorites all time:




I got to play with some of the super talented curious company on Thursday night. It was my first time playing with these people that I have grown to respect and admire and it was fun. I didn't really put myself out there. I was pretty much forced out there, but I'm glad I was. I hope I can grow into becoming much more comfortable with myself that I will start to initiate scenes on my own.

Today is Valentine's Day. I see it as a day to celebrate love. Not a day to be bitter that I'm single. So happy love day my friends!

I think that's all there is to say. Let's see if I chicken out on the phone number giving tonight.

I'm on a dolphin, doing flips and shit.

Today I dropped my lovely roommate off for work at 8:30. I then spent until 11:00 driving all over the place looking for The Lonely Island CD which I finally found at Barnes & Noble for an extremely reasonable price.

Improv class continues to challenge my brain to stop thinking and just go with the flow. It's really hard to let go.


Yesterday I got lost while driving to the theatre and called my instructor and started crying. I need to work on my anxiety and panic attacks.

I need to listen to I'm On A Boat Again.

i want to go to there.

my stomach won't settle.
oh dear lord it's happening again.

my roommate is part sasquatch.

the weather has been ridiculously nice lately. today my roommates and i went on a long walk that was nice until about the last 15 minutes when i really wanted to sit down.

i have to leave for improv class in about 10 minutes. cue super anxiety stomach.

did i mention how beautiful the weather has been?